Wednesday Update

What an age we live in...you can rent movies from the comfort of your couch, the Clapper has revolutionized the way we turn off our lights, and despite the fact that I am currently confined to a Philadelphia hospital bed, I am able to publish this blog post via email.The pace is quickening on the medical front. I went in to meet with our surgeon today, and to my surprise, he thought my headache symptoms warranted immediate admittance into the hospital. We wil be doing the angiogram tomorrow, and that will dictate which type of surgery is necessary. Any surgery would likely be performed friday, which means I'm here for the duration.I'm confident this process will go well, and it better, since my brain is kind of my money maker. I'm not the brightest guy, but I was blessed with a kick-ass short-term memory. Its the sole reason I have instant recall of vital information like internal revenue code sections, the 1992 Heisman Trophy winner, and the complete lyrics to every song ever sung in The Simpsons (see my vest, see my vest, made from real gorilla chest....see this sweater, there is no better, than authentic irish setter...)Apparently, my aneurysm is located in the part of the brain that controls short term memory, and I sure would hate to lose that gift with one stroke of a scalpel.I'm in great hands, as my surgeon is considered the best in the country when it comes to aneurysms. I even have a friend who was operated on by him and swears he's as good as it gets. Of course, when you think about it, everyone thinks their brain surgeon is the best, becase those that had shitty surgeons aren't really around to provide the negative feedback, if you know what I mean. On second thought, maybe its best if I don't think about that too much.This should all be over soon, and ill be recovering on the beach before you know it. In the meantime, if you see my wife over the next few days, give her a hug and a kiss for me (not on the lips, Carl).Thank you again for your positive thoughts and prayers. They will get me through this trying time. Talk to you soon,Tony

Never Underestimate the Staggering Drawing Power of the Garden State

After 2000 miles, 31 hours, nine states, and five and a half boxes of cheese-based snack foods, we arrived safely in New Jersey shortly after 3 AM on Monday night. None of it would have been possible without a truly heroic effort from my brother-in-law Rob, shown here shortly before getting smoked by yours truly in the 2005 Lake Lenape triathlon.

Rob left New Jersey at 3 AM on Sunday morning, landed in Denver at 10 AM, and promptly jumped into a Subaru smelling of beef jerky and puppy for the next 48 hours of his life. He's a good man, but I knew that long before this trip.

Today was our first day at home, and like with a lot of things in my life right now, I'm dealing with some conflicting emotions. On the one hand, it's great to be back around family, and spending time with my nieces, who are innocently oblivious to my current medical drama, allows me a brief respite from the otherwise relentless thoughts that have dominated the past few weeks of my life. But of course, this comes with a price. Inevitably, the distraction ends and you're forced back to reality, and you remember exactly why you're home as early as you are. The more effective the diversion, the more painful that realization is.

My headaches have also increased in frequency, duration, and intensity, but I suspect they are tension in nature rather than being a portent of something more ominous. I've got to constantly remind myself that in the two weeks prior to receiving this diagnosis, I was feeling just fine; climbing and skiing and running and hiking without a hint of a problem. Then I got the news, and three days later I woke up to a pounding headache that has basically repeated itself every day since.

Now, when looking at this logically, it's quite easy to tell yourself that it's really not medically possible for the aneurysm to have fundamentally changed in that short period, particularly when the doctors tell you that the aneurysm has likely been with me most, if not all of, my life. But man, when your head starts ringing, it's rather difficult to trust in logic. It's much easier instead to convince yourself that something is seriously, seriously wrong, and that's how you end up with a panicked trip to the emergency room like we did on Saturday.

All the speculation and uncertainty should be over soon, however, as I have my first appointment at Thomas Jefferson Hospital in Philadelphia this afternoon. I have a sneaking suspicion that as soon as my surgeon looks at my aneurysm and tells me what he sees, a big part of this guessing game will be over and my headaches will decrease dramatically.

My father has offered to take Lauren and I into the city, which while a nice gesture, now makes the drive to the appointment somewhere between 20-30 times more dangerous than the aneurysm itself.

Lauren and Maci, shown here during simpler times, are doing great. My little girl has spent the past few days frolicking in the back yard, showing off her new tricks for everyone, and sniffing everything in the neighborhood. And Maci's been having her share of fun, too.